Animal Crackers for Two

Even old people get butterflies. As our newest little 9 year old points at the ceiling and out comes her first words in English to me. Butterflies Momma, Butterflies... In the dead of winter with temperatures of 20 below I stare at the ceiling.  Not thinking I look up. In the spilt second in time my mind wonders.  Even in an orphanage a child can have humor and imagination.  Maybe being caught off guard or in the moment it makes a person think. On the outside of this old worn out building a few dying bushes.  And from the street it looks like any other old building. The caregivers and other children inside are the only family they had for years. This is the only place our children knew as home. I love spring and soon butterflies will fill the air.  Maybe the Windows will open and a few of these fragile flying angels  will fly inside.  For many of these children seeing a butterflies will be only through a panel of glass. This year marks 2...

My last post I mention obstacles. If you are reading in time I will place in words just where my time in not blogging went.  Please be patient as we prepare to travel for court in mid March.  But for now I need your prayers.  Once we announce these two children are in our arms.  I will explain how this one mom mind and heart was. 

Where are my posts you may ask?  They have been in my heart ❤.  Trying to think just what I should say.  Words can be easily written on paper.  Anyone can be a writer.  Sad to say I am not.  I'm just me..  I am not perfect..  I'll never be close to perfect I have flaws.  I'm overweight, getting older, I dont bake cookies mucj anymore.  Store cookies at the moment.  Lately I've treated the kids to pizza, McDonald's and icecream a few times to many.  I allowed them to stay up a little later.  The living became our toy room.  On the outside of the fridge is full of artwork from our children.  Watching them daily as they learn so many new things.  Little minds of innocent and wonders.  Some days I wonder if they knew how imperfect I am.  To them I provide their needs daily and include cuddling.  Holding them tightly.  If only I could hold them forever.  Shelter them from all harm.  ...

I met this boy from afar.  As he stood across the room where Barbara did her Karate stood a young boy with the biggest blue eyes.  Instant love... I knew then this is my son.. I love him.. It did not take long I wanted to know all about him... I soon found out he is listed as Sage on Reece's Rainbow.  A little bit about Sage.. He received a donor kidney and this is his only kidney.  His health we were told is not good and he needs medication which is not available in country.  Monthly it is mailed in and paid for by a wonder sponsor Serge whim I am blessed to have met years prior. As I watched Sage work out, he knew we were watching him.  You could tell he was trying hard to impress us with his skills.  As if he was trying to tell us he wants to show us he is strong and also behind his strength is a boy who wants a family.. I was told he had been wanting to find his mom.. His mom left him when he was younger.  When we first met him he was shy, b...

I am get back to blogging our journey this week and share some photos and our journey. Today I found myself missing our new little ones.  I wonder if they know we are coming back for the both of them.  Many tears as we walked out the door and said our goodbyes. This adoption has been a hard one for many reasons.  Updating documents and not knowing which child we were meant to adopt.  Honestly I just did not know what to expect once we were there. I knew this time deep inside I feel nervous and also excited.  With prior adoptions things felt so much differently than this one.  Maybe because this journey has been also a year in waiting. When we first met Barbara in hopped a little girl full of life and smiles.  As I watched her I noticed she was as nervous as I was.  But shortly we got to know one another.  I knew then inside as she sat across from us that this was our child, our daughter.. I felt inside love for a child I only met for...

I am sorry I had not posted during our travels.  After arriving our adoption took many turns and twists.  God had other plans for our family and also for two little children,   Meet our new son Sage.  He is 11 years old and he is the sweetest boy ever.  He needs immediate medical care due to losing his kidneys.  He had received a kidney from a donor and is on meds to keep his kidney functioning.  I will post a better photo after we have court.. Our daughter we posted previous we were blessed to have met also.   She is a toot and she will fit nicely in our family of little toots also.  I will post updated photos shortly.  We are due to return for court in March.. So please share our family and our new children so we can raise the funds so both these children can come home quickly.  Barbara is needing immediate surgery on her spine and right leg.  Praying we can save her little leg and repair her spine with out difficulties...

8 More Days and packing our bags.