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Additional days to wait

As we prepared to leave this Friday only to find out children's passports not ready. 
This means extra funds we have to spend.  And having to stay longer means extra time off for Gary to care for kids.
Grayson has many emotional scars from his pass.  Alot of anxiety and anger built up inside him.  Quickly his mood changes.   He has issues slamming and breaking things.  One reasons why I do not post as I wish.
Through out his body major scars if abuse.  Many times he jerks and flinches when touched.  He is presently on meds to help control his anger and emotions.
Bringing him outside he tends to run off but thank God he turns back around.  A very rough last 2 weeks with him.  Presently we had to repair two glass panels on a door.  He picks up glass and them hides it for protection.  He fears hospital and the day he had his exam it was a major melt down.  Dealing with his anger has not been easy.  Once home we will reeval his meds and seek therapy for him.  We've been translating through Google translate to communicate.  I advise anyone adopting bring your spouse on pickup trip with a child with emotional issues as Grayson does. 
This week with all of this I am running out of medication.  I was told about two weeks this trip but closer to a month.
Gotcha Day is not all roses with all children .These two children have been severely abused emotionally and mentally.  Some moments are good but many outbursts. 
Night time I have been sleeping near the apartment door to keep Grayson inside.  He wonders the apartment and eats all the food we purchase then throws it up.  Feeding disorder.  I've got little sleep since they came with us. Get plenty of rest before any Gotcha Day .You'll need it.  I found out older children much difficult than younger ones to handle.
Today's goal find some meds for me. And find away to control Grayson's outbursts.

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